whoever of u out there… love the ones u love and just let go the ones u never wanted to see, hear or be with…
rite now, i’m living a life on my own… i used to thing tat as long as he loves me there is nothing i have to worry about. but it was untrue… it was a decision we both made… a moment we both cried together to make future plannings. his currently in KL and i’m living in PG. .. it’s like 3 hour bas away. somehow, i know we both we having hard times and we still are… i used to feel tat he would be there for me no matter wad we go through… but wad didn’t went through my head was now. i didn’t showed him enough love before he left… i always told him not to be so baby like for he loves to feel my care and i know tat somehow i didn’t show it all… rite now i was thinking wad if i did and wad if i’ve shown him, things wouldn’t be that hard after all. and now tat his gone, i have nothing to show him… his got a cut on this toe during swimming… yes, usually i will ask him to get antiseptic and if he doesn’t i will force him to get or make sure he gets it. but rite now, he haven’t got it and i’m so worried tat his in pain.. and he still didn’t get it… usually i’ll give him a peck of kiss on his wound. and now i can’t..yes before he left we did have official dates… but it’s hard.. it’s so hard… i truly remember the first outings came through… we both went to have McDonalds. it was fun… the thing is life just cannot be without him. it’s hard… i don’t want him to be left alone… i don wanna cry a lone everytime i miss him… i don’t wanna go to the cinema alone or watch movies alone… i don’t wanna know bout other stuff bout other ppl or wadsoever except those that means him… he always allows me to do wadever i like… the thing is i took it for granted. it’s not suppose to be that way… the times we had by the beach… i still remember we were hugging each other on the rocks… i always wanted to snap shots of us at the beach but always, we never have our chances… when i was facing i horrible past, though there were many of them by my side… he was the one who made me felt a lot better.. somehow because of me he didn’t mind being wrongly accused… i just wish the truth is so out there… i want him home… he usually takes me out when i have my free time.. he will support me whever i go… he will hold me close and tell me everything is ok… his heart msy be fragile but he protects me always with all his heart and he knkows wad to make me smile every single time… the very first time we were frens he gave me lots of bunny icons… those were the ones that made me started calling him bunny… he was the one who understands me the most no matter where i stand whether i am wrong or rite in situations… he always feels my heart and he would do wadever or anything for me no matter where he is and all i wan him to know is i miss him a lot… i miss him with all my heart… i miss his lips onto mine… i miss the sweet words he whisper into my ear.. i miss him companing me… i miss seeing his eyes… his eyes was the one that sometimes made me fear but tells me i can thrust him no matter wad happens… he was the first i told i bought a tortis… he was the one whom i told one of my tortis is dead… he was the one i was so afraid ppl taking him away from me… he was the one and only person who love me for who i am… never thinking that i was a hommie princess… never thinkng of using me just to show how good he is… he was the one who lighten my dark paths when i was in fear… he brought me to the lights… i lead me to my rainbows… he tells me how important i am to him and i’ve seen it… not long ago when we both were caught out unofficially… i saw it… i saw him rushing up and down in malls, o9n the roads, everywhere… he gave me a ring that ones he told me it means eternal love… until today he is still with me… the ring is still on my finger… and if long distance relationship is wad he wants me to believe in, i will… he said ones he would die for me like i would for him… we both face it before… i’ve seen him worrying when the cut was there… i saw him feeling bad and sad and wrong when it happen… i’ve seen it in his face… i know wad his thinking and i regret everything that i’ve done but if a chance was given to me, i will still do the same… no matter where he is and whatever time, i still love him with all my heart…
